Im still tryin to figure it out....
haunting memories
Posted 07-31-2008 at 01:33 AM by no1uvintrest
you ever have a memory.... that was so bad that you almost forced yourself to forget it?... the problem with these types of memories... is that they never fully go away... and manage to surface in the most inopportune of times... you try to drive them out again... and again... and again and again.... but they always manage to find their way back to you...
and then you have no choice but to relive it... review it... analyze it... and then analyze yourself... and question why such things happen to you... to ANYONE really...
it sucks that i have so many bad memories thoughout my life... and now i realize that some were a lot worse than others... some i hadnt remembered until somethings in my present kinda triggered them...
im left to wonder why we are given the paths we have... and what would life be like if we had the option to take different roads... for every bad experience we were subjected to, what if there was a "rewind" button. or some sort of sign that the bad was coming... i know that many lives would be very different... mine for sure.... chances are if i had the option... i would choose NOT to be so screwed up about so much...
it bugs me to know that other ppl made wrong decisions about my life on purpose... knowing that it would bring some sort of trauma and just not caring... it hurts to know i have to live with haunting memories and mentally prepare myself for the fact that there is always more to come... more to overcome.
whatever... just a thought.
and then you have no choice but to relive it... review it... analyze it... and then analyze yourself... and question why such things happen to you... to ANYONE really...
it sucks that i have so many bad memories thoughout my life... and now i realize that some were a lot worse than others... some i hadnt remembered until somethings in my present kinda triggered them...
im left to wonder why we are given the paths we have... and what would life be like if we had the option to take different roads... for every bad experience we were subjected to, what if there was a "rewind" button. or some sort of sign that the bad was coming... i know that many lives would be very different... mine for sure.... chances are if i had the option... i would choose NOT to be so screwed up about so much...
it bugs me to know that other ppl made wrong decisions about my life on purpose... knowing that it would bring some sort of trauma and just not caring... it hurts to know i have to live with haunting memories and mentally prepare myself for the fact that there is always more to come... more to overcome.
whatever... just a thought.
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life's decisions...I've made my share of decisions I want to second guess. But the thing about life's experinces (In my opinion)...
"The good and the bad things we go through" ...Is that they make us what we are now. And I've found that the majority of people I've met that haven't had the bad experiences don't know what its like to feel real joy, or real love, or to have an expereince that makes you want better. Regret can be a decent fuel. Its definitely made my life worth living. |
 
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