you ever have a memory.... that was so bad that you almost forced yourself to forget it?... the problem with these types of memories... is that they never fully go away... and manage to surface in the most inopportune of times... you try to drive them out again... and again... and again and again.... but they always manage to find their way back to you...


and then you have no choice but to relive it... review it... analyze it... and then analyze yourself... and question why...

no1uvintrest

well... let's see... in this past month alone i have seen a loved one... watched him leave...
been yelled at...
blamed for...
accused...
spazzed on... my list goes on really...



i feel like im at the end of my rope... too much is happenin too fast all at once...

my uncle wants me out... he says im not doin anything (i guess workin doubles til i just about pass out is nuthin... i suppose payin off allll that debt acquired, also,...

no1uvintrest

so im sure i havent said anything about this to most... but my Cat, Oreo, had been lost for almost 2 months... my uncle left the back door open and she just walked out...

i was VERY upset... for a very long time she was my only company... anyways...

i'll have you all know that i am actually near-sighted... and SHOULD wear glasses... but seldom do... today was one of the many days that i didnt...

so me and my uncle and my ex were on the roof of the house...

no1uvintrest

or am i like to ONLY person who really uses this thing... ?


my 12 (13 if you count this once its posted) blogs compared to the 1-4 other ppl have posted makes me think maybe i talk too much and need to lay off... i write to get stuff off my chest... to have something to do... not so much to entertain... but if it does then hey-- happy to do so...


so then let me ask you, the person who may or may not be reading this...

does what i have to...

no1uvintrest

i hold many titles in my life...
"girlfriend" , "friend" , "sister", "daughter" etc.
we all do... but as i sit here i cant help but wonder what that means to the outside world vs what my job actually is..
i feel like my titles as daughter and sister are often mistaken for "mother". when things dont go the way they are supposed to for my mom i have to hear about it... the kids dont act right, she ships them off to me... i didnt birth...

no1uvintrest