"The Unconfined Prisoner" (cannot/will not move)..

I CANNOT MOVE
While the exterior claims that everything okay
My interior remains in a vegetative state
I feel as if I am running at the speed of light's pace
Yet the rank I maintain in this race is last place
And this is more than a cliché –ish “writer's block” case
I am internally paralyzed and feel like a ****in' disgrace
I bit complacency's fruit, and there's a permanent after taste
No room left on my plate, yet I continue to feel weight…

I CANNOT MOVE
…No matter how hard I try
And even the slowest mutha****a is passin' me by
Off track and lacking the spiritual stimuli
They ask how I fell from my high and I'm answering with a “sigh”
Cause I don't know why, I'm moving in slow-fi
So weak, I'm incapable of even breakin' “loose” ties
I feel as if I'm rotting, watching my own demise
Stressin' off this depression and all I can do is cry….because

I CANNOT MOVE
Feels like I'm living out the scene of a bad dream
With monsters chasing me but when I let out a scream
All that exists is a mute, closer to inner death I lean
Failure so engraved in me, feels like it's a part of my genes
If success is considered fresh, then deem me as unclean
Standing still is an ill drug and I'm an addicted fein
In critical need of a rehabilitative team
Thirsty for the distance river, but unable to reach the stream…because

I CANNOT MOVE
The purpose of these lips was once to spread spiritual gifts
But now the seeds I use to feed are lacking in nourishment
And I don't know where it went nor how or when I lost it
A sudden halt in the flows generated from my thoughts faucet
And it appears that this extremely dramatic shift was quite wicked
In that it left me mentally demented and lyrically autistic
Engaged in a kiss, but couldn't handle the abyss
If I was granted one wish I would have avoided these risks… because

I CANNOT MOVE
Strapped down like a patient in a mental asylum/My creative confined with ropes, only I can untie um/Evil continues to prosper while righteousness is dying, and if I said “I feel like fighting” I'd be obviously lying….because I CANNOT MOVE.

I WILL NOT MOVE
…Up out this child support line
Baby daddy ain't paid a dime since 1999
Rent is past due, I've been assessed a late fine
No assistance got me tempted to cut somebody's lifeline
Plus I still ain't seen no royalties from any of these rhymes
Maybe if I subtract my talent, I'd be closer to getting signed
But I will persevere cause GOD blesses when its time
Best believe strength in me, without a doubt you WILL find….

I WILL NOT MOVE
…From out my bus seat
****! I been working ALL day, can a ***** rest her feet?
I'm 5'2, 115, so why you packing the heat?
Is it cause you realize it takes many men to handle this beast?
Don't get it twisted; cause the weakness in me has BEEN deceased
I'll snatch up ya pride and serve it at my next feast
Indeed what seems least will be most conversely what's most will be least
I'm fed a double negative so only positivity can be released…

I WILL NOT MOVE
…Nor stray from my confident state
I will not continue to allow external forces to determine my fate
Materialistic fishers once utilized me as the bait
I'm flipping scripts now I'm the one who intimidates
No longer will I concentrate on forces that breed hate
Holding on to a spiritual that NO MAN can shake
Thanking my GOD for every morning that I awake
Submitting to my purpose and holding on to my faith…

I WILL NOT MOVE
AND you will not find me dwelling on things of the past
Droppin' so much negative weight you'd think I was on a fast
Understanding the significance of the pain in each lash
While spreading my ministry faster than a contagious rash
Taking my once complacent state out with the trash
Come witness this baptism…or should I say bath?
Because I am soaked in this newly repented aftermath
With confidence in knowing my name is on the “list” that will avoid my lord's wrath…


I WILL NOT MOVE
Sometimes you MUST move and sometimes you MUST stand still…BUT you MUST ALWAYS submit to God's will/Sometimes it's hard when all seems at stake…but I pray that you will be wise in the moves that you make. God Speed.

Locutus 2.0

Maria, I finally read this. I gotta say, between you and Speak, you two got this place flowing with culture! Woman, I'm in awe of you. I can see this is a very personal piece and now I know what you were talking about when you commented on a poem you were working on. This is that poem and I am ...


IMPRESSED!!!!!!!!

Big THUMBS UP, baby! THUMBS UP!!!!

I think you just gained a groupie in me.

mariamore

thanks for reading goucho!!

and THANK YOU Locutus for that detailed response!

glad yall liked it!