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Originally Posted by RedEarth
I was wondering why your interview had been locked!? So you requested that huh? Interesting.
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Yep! It scared the sh** out of me being so up front, honest and out there
and worse reading some of those comments...
I wrote things I never told anyone........not even my kids know all the crap
from my childhood.... I didn't want to have that sh** hang on them too.
I am (well started a book about it in 1997) and plan to finish it..but don't plan for anyone to see it until after I die......
It is real angry and hateful and I try and not remember all the crap that happened...... self preservation.......
But I realize how I act and feel is because of what has happened to me...and it keeps effecting me in a lot of my life.........
Hence my not trusting people.......hiding, running away from feelings, not ever having a good relationship further than friends........
Only fallen in love twice...frist one died on me before I could get things straightened out with him because I ran away from the shock and feelings...
This one is f***ing up royal right now and my trust level is zero......
But I am smart, resourceful, good researcher........etc........
and definitely F***ing Irish, and if I am screwed over....
REVENGE is my middle name!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't threaten either...I make promises............
and I keep ALL my promises and committments.......
In other words I am being lied to right now and he has been caught in a lie and trying to back peddle to keep me in his life...but I am an all or nothing person........
He put himself on myspace as single(now divorced) which he is..and looking for "dating, serious relationships........etc" even though we have been dating for almost a year..........
and has approached over 20 women in our area........with these lies......
all while saying he "loves me" and wants me in his life forever?
I am hurt angry and mad............
Oh, since this is the war room....he is the reason I found this site...He likes to drool and oogle models he will never meet and who will never give him a second look............ googled him, found this and other stuff....but in checking out this site and the comments on it...I enjoyed reading the topics and have stayed.......
Oh check out this......
http://www.myspace.com/biggdogg86
I'll bury his ass if he's crossing me........